the weird life i live

Good morning! Okay it's really early I know, especially for me. But I moved to the country and get up with the roosters... Go figure! Oh boy not a lot done this weekend as usual but it's life I guess. We finished what's left of the boards on Saturday, Missing more parts but after mom and dad come home we'll be leaving to work at Elk. Saturday mom and I went to the Clayton homes place just to look around. Oh am I in love! They have this four bedroom house there. Sweet! I'm going to live in the bathroom...I swear! It was so big but then so was the master bedroom. And the closet....To die for.... I have my oun front room (it's one of the houses with two living areas on a sitting room and one a living room), Then the 'party room'. It has the kitchen Erica wants badly; cabenet space and a island in the middle of the room!! Plenty of room to move around and a dining room. Mom finds a dinning room sooo important....I don't know why but I guess it is. We eat in front of the tube and probably will in any house we buy. My dad last night learned how to use the cd burner we have. He made this awesome picture display of our family of what pictures we had here, I don't think he sould have used some pictures but who am I to complain. He's into Geneology recently and thinks he found an uncle and his grandparents. The strange part is he thinks this uncle lived in New Port Richey the same tine we did!!! Unfortunatley he has died and he can't find anymore information on this guy. See my dad lost his dad when he was 2 and 1/2 and Grandpa Laurence was 56, I think. My aunt Becky doesnt remember much about his dad and of course my Grandmother Rhoda is gone too. But while alive she never really had anything to do with us and we just settled in having 1 Grandma (on my moms side) and her family as relatives. So I didnt know I had cousins and stuff from my dad's side of the family until late in life. Family means alot to me don't get me wrong. Sometimes I would like to find out about them and then other times I just dont care......Who do I have to share it with? I don't have kids and my sister and I are the last of the Gray's on his side once we die thats it, his side dies out....I don't see me adopting someone to carry one the name and Erica doesn't seem interested in having a baby (and she's the only one who can now) so where does it go? It ends after us. Isn't that sad? Another chapter in someones family history ends just because of selfishness? And apparently this appathy for having children runs deep in his family. He has two step- brothers who didnt have children either. What a situation. Enough dragging deppressing things into the picture.


Computer class tonight and I still have to take a test.....Did I study? I'm sure you know the answer to that one don't you.....(wink wink nudge nudge)
So off to study and other fun things today .....

Here's thinking about money and not getting any........